Day 186 - Moderation thoughts, really?
Yes - I’ve been struggling lately. I have all kinds of strange moderation ideas hitting me in waves: could I drink once a year? Could I drink once a month? Twice a month when the kids are with their mother... But then it hits me: I CAN drink whenever I want. I just choose not to. You see the distinction? This journey is MY choice, nobody forced me to stop drinking, I did it because I was tired of the anxiety and the feeling of not being in control. Now that I’ve achieved that and gotten rid of these things in my life it’s not really fair to change the perspective and only think about the good things with alcohol when it comes as a package and a package I don’t want. And regarding my moderation thoughts: what’s the point really? Even if I could set up rules to adhere to it would lead to one of two scenarios: the first and most probable would be that I fail and would be back in this group feeling like shit. The second scenario is that I with enormous effort and willpower manag...