Day 54: Long and short term goals

We’re told to set our goals - no matter how unachievable they are. That’s a good idea. Me as someone who has an innate ability to always feel good right where I am have always had a hard time finding the reason to accomplish my goals since I always find a way to feel good where I am anyhow. Especially for the materialistic goals - or the brain goals as I like to call them.
This ability also applies to my emotional goals, or my heart goals, but with one big difference: I cannot neglect them all the time or my superpower of feeling good right where I am will lead me to despair. You can live without a nice car - but you cannot pretend that you live in a healthy relationship if you’re not.
When I stopped drinking - this led to a smaller revelation to me: I’ve always been good at intellectually convince myself that my heart goals are fulfilled when they are not. My brain came up with all kinds of strange reasons why my heart was happy and alcohol helped me think that they were. The revelation was that I cannot use the brain to decide where I’m heading - it’s the hearts job. The brain’s job is to figure out how to get there once the heart has decided where to go. But my heart has to come first for the long-term goals, or I will end up miserable.
I think this is the reason quitting alcohol is a bigger deal than it first seems. You cannot lie to yourself anymore once you’ve taken away the veil around your heart which is alcohol. The heart will scream at you to take the steps needed to be able to fulfill its goals. This can lead to some tough decisions but at least you will be true to yourself.

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