Day 337 - As we were created to be



There is really no difference between addictions whether it is weed, alcohol or some other drug. It's all about getting the brain used to abnormal levels of endorphins and dopamine. Getting the brain used to shots of endorphins that desensitize the system so that we need more and more to feel the same high.

You don't know you're addicted until you try to stop and it can be hard to face the first time. So hard that you even don't want to face it and you need to reset. For every reset you take a small step until you get it: you have to shift focus of being tired of drinking to being tired of trying not to. When you're tired of trying, you don't want to reset anymore.
As always there are withdrawal symptoms before the brain starts getting back at normal levels. The beauty with the brain is its ability to mend itself. It's not a coincidence that a lot of addiction programs start with 90 days since that's is the amount of time it takes for most brains to get back to normal levels.
The big lesson is that delayed gratification is much more rewarding than its instant counterpart. Our whole system is wired to make us think it's the other way around but once we feel it, it's a heavenly feeling. For me it happened at about 60 days.
And those AF superpower we like to refer to, are no superpowers, really. They are something way better.

They are YOU and ME as we were created to be.

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