Day 300 - Inspired

Breath in. 

I’ve come to think that the most wonderful thing of getting rid of burdening habits and alcohol abuse is the feeling of being inspired again. When the heavy, wet cloth of alcohol is removed, a new room for inspiring thoughts is created. And inspiration leads to life changes because when I allow myself to rest in that room, true life energy emerges in all kind of forms and shapes. 

More inspired as a parent. Having an idea of what kind of relationship I want with my kids and having the energy to work to get it. It’s never easy to be a parent but I know that I have a way better shot at it without alcohol.

More inspired in my professional life. With purpose I can decide what I want to achieve and get there thanks to my energy and momentum. Not only “end up” which unconscious decision making fueled by hangovers tend to render.

More inspired in all other relations. I just do not end up with whoever wants to drink with me tonight. Instead I decide which people that give me energy and can work to nourish those relationships.

It’s so suitable that the word “inspiration” comes from “to breath” in or “inhale”. It sure feels like when I stopped drinking I could start breathing in life into all areas of my life. Like injecting energy into where there used to be dead matter and to build from within with purpose and direction.

inspiration: "immediate influence of God or a god," especially that under which the holy books were written, from Old French inspiracion "inhaling, breathing in"

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